As I was drifting off to sleep last night, thoughts of you filled my mind. I was remembering you and it seemed as though your entire life flashed before my eyes. When I awoke this morning, I wrote down these words.
Loved to Infinity and Beyond
I was in the room as you came out of her womb and breathed for the first time
I severed the cord between you and her; then knew that you were mine
You were handed to me and as I held you tightly in my grasp
The love inside began to grow as I thought, "My child, at last."
I watched you grow, I helped you play, I taught you how to speak
Each day with you was a miracle as was the love that we would keep.
You were told of God's great love for you and how Jesus gave His life
You accepted Him within your heart and gave to Him your life
You loved to laugh, you loved to smile, you even loved to sing
Your favorite songs were worship songs and you gladly praised our King.
When you turned five, things started to change; something was not right
You were hurting, your smile was off, and you were not sleeping tight.
It all changed in an instant, we couldn't believe the things that we had heard
In the blink of an eye, our lives turned upside down based on a single word
You were so quiet, so very still as you lay sleeping on the bed
The doctors confirmed it was a tumor that was inside your head.
We started a journey we didn't want and thought we'd never have to take
"My child is sick, may even die" and my heart began to break.
Doctors, hospitals, and MRIs -- those became our "new norm"
This wasn't what I pictured on the day that you were born
You hurt so much and I couldn't imagine being in such pain
Yet you bore it all, you were so brave, and you would not complain.
Just five short months from diagnosis, you grew so very weak
You couldn't walk, you barely ate, you couldn't even speak.
The night before you passed away, you looked into my eyes
You told me that you loved me and I think you realized
You'd never speak to us again, you'd never even wake
Then you drifted off to sleep with a smile upon your face.
Your breathing became labored, it would soon be time for death
I held you closely in my arms as you breathed your final breath.
I miss you more than ever, but rejoice because I know
We'll meet again in Heaven, God said it would be so
Oh, the joys and wonders and the things there'll be to see
When together again in Heaven, we finally will be.
I love you, dearest Caleb, you are always in my heart
Loved to infinity and beyond just like in the start.
July 26, 2011
Caleb, I will love and miss you as long as I draw breath within me -- until we are reunited in Heaven. Continue to praise our Lord and King. Sing so loud that I can hear you from here, sweet boy.
I love you to infinity and beyond,